There is a baby in there

Had my sonogram today and there is a little tiny baby in there. It was so nice to be able to see that, and to see that tiny heartbeat fluttering away. I forgot to ask the tech what the rate was, but of course it was normal or they would have told us. We did get to take home a few pics, they are not very clear and the baby is hard to see, but they are still precious to look at.









Oh also my due date stayed the same. The baby was measuring 2 days ahead, but my dr. said that when it is within 2 days they keep the original date. So I am officially due June 18th. Also I am changing this blog to be public now, since I feel more confident in the pg, I am going to start telling more people.


On another note I received a scrip to help me with my sickness, hopefully it might be of some help. I had lost a pound, so I guess my dr. thought that I should stop throwing up. I actually thought it was pretty good I only lost 1 pound. According to my scale I was down 5 pounds at one point. But of course I know it is never good to lose weight when you are pg. My dr. actually said to me, "Let's see if you can gain some weight next time". Which I found a little bit funny, because my last pg, he was quick to tell me when I was only half way through that I had gained enough weight for my whole pg already. I'm sure my weight gain will get right back up there again, once this throwing up stops.

All day sickness

This is what I am currently suffering from, all day sickness. I guess I should have known that I couldn't get so lucky to have hardly any sickness this time like I did last time. It's okay though. But I hate to throw up and it appears that I have to do it everyday now. I guess I am still quite lucky, because I know there are women that throw up constantly and get dehydrated and have to go the hospital and what not and I am not any where near that sick. But I do throw up at least once a day, usually before dinner. I was excited the other day, when I went the whole day without throwing up, hoping that maybe I just had one bad week and then it was getting better. But unfortunately it did not last.

Part of me thinks that this is fine, since it must mean everything is going okay with the little one right? But really I am getting more and more paranoid. I can't wait for my u/s next week and can actually feel some relief that this little one is on schedule and growing like it should. Even though I know it is completely normal to feel like this when you are pg, it just doesn't seem normal to me. Why do our bodies react this way, it doesn't make any sense, and since I didn't experience this before, it makes me wonder if something is wrong. I am tempted to call my dr., but then I tell myself that I only have to wait one more week and I will get to talk with him anyway and hopefully will be relieved to see a strong heartbeat at my u/s, and then I will have nothing to worry about, right? Yeah I know, I will find something else to worry about. Is there ever really a time when we can completely stop worrying?